hmm i dunno im feeling now lah. did something super super stupid (and painful) today!!!!gosh. super embarrassing haha. loo. another thing to add in our embarrassing book :S along with all the "gymnastics" sessions haha.oooooooh. tml got driving again heh.
ok im really not very happy right now. its not just tt my head still kinda hurts or wadeva. dunno lah. just well. sometimes i wonder who are my real friends. spending time tgt means close friend? i dunno lah. i used to think so but i guess i realised tts not the case. and sometimes just feel qt used by some pple. i think everyone is a user actually. as in i know that i have used pple b4 too! but well dunno lah i guess some pple are more user than others? i just wish i had someone. not like a bf or wad. something like what joy and esther or es and ting or rubs and za have. thot i had one but well. circumstances intervened. sometimes i just see someone and i really wish that person wasnt there. qt evil i know but i do! stop it stop it. is it possible to really like a person in some situations and not like the same person in others? hmm. i really should stop being so judgemental i think. but i really do love that person alot! just sometimes dun like only.
anyway i think that i should stop imposing on people. if you really enjoy being with me it shouldnt be so difficult right? ive been too desperate i think. qt ashamed of what i have done. retarded lah. and i dun even noe y i do it u noe. i try so hard and well. dunno lah i guess its just tt feeling part of something feels good.its just that i thought maybe just maybe i had real friends
hmm oh wells. nvm lah maybe its the knock to the head haha. or the tiredness. slept at 3+ again den had church today. or maybe its the tiredness tt is allowing me to make known what i have been feeling? dunno lah. i think if i din have God i would really feel like crap now. at least i know where i stand with Him. well have been neglecting Him abit recently. feel qt bad. maybe tts y i feel so down.
nvm lah dun worry. ill cheer up soon. :)
ok im really not very happy right now. its not just tt my head still kinda hurts or wadeva. dunno lah. just well. sometimes i wonder who are my real friends. spending time tgt means close friend? i dunno lah. i used to think so but i guess i realised tts not the case. and sometimes just feel qt used by some pple. i think everyone is a user actually. as in i know that i have used pple b4 too! but well dunno lah i guess some pple are more user than others? i just wish i had someone. not like a bf or wad. something like what joy and esther or es and ting or rubs and za have. thot i had one but well. circumstances intervened. sometimes i just see someone and i really wish that person wasnt there. qt evil i know but i do! stop it stop it. is it possible to really like a person in some situations and not like the same person in others? hmm. i really should stop being so judgemental i think. but i really do love that person alot! just sometimes dun like only.
anyway i think that i should stop imposing on people. if you really enjoy being with me it shouldnt be so difficult right? ive been too desperate i think. qt ashamed of what i have done. retarded lah. and i dun even noe y i do it u noe. i try so hard and well. dunno lah i guess its just tt feeling part of something feels good.its just that i thought maybe just maybe i had real friends
hmm oh wells. nvm lah maybe its the knock to the head haha. or the tiredness. slept at 3+ again den had church today. or maybe its the tiredness tt is allowing me to make known what i have been feeling? dunno lah. i think if i din have God i would really feel like crap now. at least i know where i stand with Him. well have been neglecting Him abit recently. feel qt bad. maybe tts y i feel so down.
nvm lah dun worry. ill cheer up soon. :)
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